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►ŋσтнוиפ ωяσŋפ ωוтн мε
___Deeper I'm falling
___into the arms of sorrow;
___blindly descending
___into the arms of sorrow.

Look upon me. I am the beast.

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[/i]. And not with the other team. I don't know. You know what? Fuck it, never mind, it doesn't matter. No one cares, anyway.[/ul][/ul]

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►ℓεт тнε вσ∂וεѕ нוт тнε ғɩооя
___The demons of my own design.
___This horror must not remain.

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[/i] know, my eyes are a distinct mix of green and blue. Kind of reminds me of algae growing in the sea. There's more blue in them, actually, and there are these pale blue, almost teal specs around the pupils. Not to be egocentric, but compared to other peoples' dumb eyes, I think mine are kind of cool.[/ul][/ul]

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[/i]. I feel short, at least, compared to my doctor, he's really tall, he's like some more-than-six-foot or something. Whatever. The last time he measured my height, he said that I was about five feet and seven inches, but that I'd still grow a bit, most likely. Like I give a damn if I do or not.[/ul][/ul]

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[/i] know, I weigh ninety-five pounds, or something around that. It's not a lot, and my doctor always yells at me and beats me over the head with his clipboard and tells me to eat so that I don't die. Pft. I highly doubt you could die from not eating.[/ul][/ul]

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[/i] in scars. I have tons of burn scars along my left side, including my neck, arm, stomach, hip, and leg, though they're just small patches here and there, except the large one all around my shoulder that extends up to my neck. There are also a bunch of those on my fingertips. I have tons of bite mark scars along my palms, wrists, arms, shoulders, calves, and feet, from when I had my biting episodes when I was a kid. I have a few scratch mark scars from my scratching episodes, though most of those are along my chest and upper arms. There's the few large gash scars that had to be stitched up when I got them a couple years ago; there's on on the back of my right thigh, and one along my stomach, just to the side of my navel, it goes a bit diagonal towards my right hip. My knees and elbows are covered in scars from being scraped up, and my face has a few scars that I gave myself when I was an infant. I also have a few areas along my skull that had to get stitched up from the few times I cracked my head open. Two of those three times I did on purpose, for attention. Oh, and you can't forget the really dark scar across my left wrist, from that time I wanted attention so bad that I sliced it open and got blood all up in the others' breakfast at the orphanage. Haha, that was one was really funny.[/ul][/ul]

►ѕσмεтнוŋפѕ פот то ופνε
___Running, always running, into the distance--
___stop me before I bleed, again.
___The echoes of my voice
___follow me down;
___the shadows I cast
___follow me down.

_{Drowning once again. Will I live another day?}

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[/i] become?
I will not become anything important. At least, that's what I honestly, truly believe. Perhaps I'll do something interesting with my life. At most, maybe I'll train Pok?mon. As for a real career... I don't know. I don't have any talents or anything. I like movies, though, and I was forced to participate in a few plays at the orphanage. Maybe I'll become an actor or something.[/ul][/ul]
^{To reach the surface. Let this burden drift away.}

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_{Imprisoned, inside this mind. Hiding behind the empty smiles.}

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^{What can I do, to alter my perception, of the way and the truth?}

_{Who knows how long, I've been lost in the dark.}
^{Followed closely by the footsteps of my failures.}

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I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel.

My empire of dirt.

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_{Who knows how long, the void has swallowed me.}
^{I only wish for nothing more than peace to find me.}

There must be serenity.
There must be deliverance.
Deeper I'm falling,
blindly descending.

Is this the moment where I leave the blackness,
Is this the moment of my rebirth?

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